Safe to Love You

The doors close
All is darkness
I stand trembling here
Waiting for you
Your eyes blink slowly
But you don't know me
Bitterness holds you
Calling you her own

Then I close my eyes and only then it's safe to love you

Aching deep inside
You're my secret
Wrapped with all my greatest hopes
Deepest fears
I keep you there for fear they'll find you hidden here

Then I close my eyes and only then it's safe to love you

Sit in the rain and soak up the sky
Like water bleeds through
You slowly seep into my core
I think of you

Then I close my eyes and only then it's safe to love you

Falling Out With Wonderland

Childlike eyes do fade with time
I got so boring and I don't know how the spark
Inside my heart got eaten by the dark
By the dark

Coffins full of cloud-framed dreams
I couldn't measure up to greater things
I tried so hard but it didn't really get me very far
I tried so hard

Alice. Oh, Alice. Oh.
Where did all your Wonder go?
Alice. Oh, Alice.
Please just give me one more smile?

Alice. Oh, Alice. Oh.
Where did all your Wonder go?
Please, Alice. Dear, Alice.
Can't you please just give me one more smile?

There were risks I could not take
I ran to what I thought was an escape
But now I'm lost inside a world of lies and eyes and claws
Eyes and claws

In my mind's eye I can see
My inner child sleeping dreamlessly
What is that like?
A naive peace that fills the soul and warms the night
What is that like?

Alice. Oh, Alice. Oh.
Where did all your Wonder go?
Alice. Oh, Alice.
Please just give me one more smile?

Alice. Oh, Alice. Oh.
Where did all your Wonder go?
Please, Alice. Dear, Alice.
Can't you please just give me one more smile?

Oh child in me, awake to brighter things
Can't you see there is a new sun rising?
Letting go of all regrets of all my yesterdays
Today I embrace the dawn

Alice. Oh, Alice. Oh.
Where did all your Wonder go?
Alice. Oh, Alice.
Please just give me one more smile?

Alice. Oh, Alice. Oh.
Where did all your Wonder go?
Please, Alice. Dear, Alice.
Can't you please just give me one more smile?

Victory

Death came by spear and blade
Sprawled across the fields they lay

And their blood soaks into the ground
Those who are left will bury the slain
All men live or dead
Each must make his way home

Dedicate the victory won
To the widows and fatherless sons

Banners wave
Emblems fade
Children sing a song of honour and tears

Graves and shadow feed our regret
Can a man heal and still not forget?

Banners wave
Emblems fade
Children sing a song of honour

And their blood soaks into the ground
Those who are left will bury the slain
All men live or dead
Each must make his way home

Banners wave
Emblems fade
Children sing a song of honour and tears

Kalafina

I came across this beautiful Japanese group today and wanted to share them with all of you.


Kalafina Storia PV from KunGVIP on Vimeo.

The post from the 18th of this month was a song I wrote for a band that was considering taking me on as their vocalist. I worked very hard on it and they loved it but then they told me they didn't want me in the band. Their reasoning was something about how I didn't fit their sound. The band was very new and still in its formative stages. They want a stereotypical sounding vocalist. Someone who can sound raspy and badass when talking to rhythm and emo when they sing. Doesn't anyone want something unique so they can rise above the local scene? I'm losing heart.

Divine Justice

You will understand the universe
You are better than the populace
Isn't it sad that they aren't like you?
They just can't see truth
Aren't you glad to be one of us?

Free, Free from your deceit
No longer walking blind
When you judge and criticize
Do you feel better?
Breathe, the air that drinks so sweet
I reject your toxic touch

In the mirror I can see my life in reverse
Nature, Nurture, Knowledge, Providence
Many factors shaped what I have become
It wasn't just one
Existence, the experience

Fin

You whisper loudly at my heart's door.
An end would be so sweet.
Dip myself into nothingness.
Shake til I am numb.
Eyes.
Empty, unfocused windows.
Face.
Statuesquely solemn.
I feel nothing but the tickle of tears.
See nothing but a liquid blur.
Wish for nothing
But to curl up and fade
Like a lily in the sun.