I'm not perfect and it is killing me
I judge people who don't deserve it
The thoughts just don't turn to words and fall out my face
You have done nothing to earn my harsh criticisms
Sometimes jealousy gets the best of me
Making me black and white in a brightly painted and beautiful world
I bleed all my colors off the pages of my life
Wishing I could be anyone but me
Then my perspective flips
I am an egotistic fuck
Thinking I am better than all of you
The gods' gift to the motherfucking universe
But also fragile like bone china
I'm scared of everything
Especially myself
Fear of the new leaves me stagnant
Frozen
I just know I am going to fuck up
Someone will tease me in jest like they'd tease any other
An innocent attempt at levity
I will snap
Morph into the beast I am
Melt them with the acid of my own self hatred
How dare you point out my fucking failure
I'm so ugly on the inside
I am told it is normal
I don't want to be normal
I want to ascend and transcend this disgusting, broken shell
I want to escape
I want to be better
I want out
Let me out
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